Tuesday, September 30, 2014

A Desperate Time and the Desperate Measure

If the world is indeed the survival for the fittest, do we have to let go of what's true and love when push comes to shove? While I was writing my previous entry, I had the opportunity to chat with Regie, one of my closest high school friends. Like me, he is gay, and he is experiencing a financial issue that has been pushing him to do something more of desperation.

Times like this, you were like pushed against the edge of a cliff.

Crossing the Line: A Piece on Regret

As I've said, I'm not really into casual encounters. And one reason is because I am not very much keen on looking at first impressions. Sure, I do appreciate good looks and well-kept appearance, but I find the mind more beautiful than anything else. That appreciation, however, can only come to one if you personally know someone-- a co-worker, a neighbor, or someone who have poured his soul for you. But then, how will you cross the line towards that person? You sure don't want to ruin what you have with this person but you want to give it a shot, putting you in a very difficult position.

What you say: "Yeah, yeah, you're right." In your mind: "Damn, those lips look so wet and soft."

Sunday, September 28, 2014

My Last Lay: Of Second Chances and Cuddling

Not much has been going on in my life right now because I just lost my job. Just like yesterday where I only stayed here at home with my laptop and a book. So I have decided to go back in time and look back at the highlights (or lowlights) of my sex and love lives. Today, I have decided to relate my latest sexcapade, which isn't actually much of an escapade but rather a normal sex eyeball.

My life is so boring, even picking nose cannot offer any novelty anymore.

Friday, September 26, 2014

Why I Am Not Promiscuous

As a gay man, I have all the inclinations and avenues to have casual and one-night sexual relationships with other gay dudes. I have the carnal appetite and I have to say I also know how to find someone to do it with, what with all the gay bars in the metro and gay social apps these days. However, I do not choose to give in and act on my sexual urges most of the times. I don't know if it's a good thing but I can control myself, most of the time.

Sex is awesome, but I'd rather not. Thanks.

Losing Sh*t

I guess this day will need to come from time to time; the day where you do not feel like doing anything. Before this day, I had a lot of things going on-- from guys to flirt in social dating apps, interviews and applications, to the enthusiasm to read. But today seems to be very different as I do not seem to have the energy to do anything at all.

This painting catches exactly what I feel right now.

Thursday, September 25, 2014

Love, According to the Stars

I have been going out a lot this week to attend exams and interviews from different companies. And it is in these moments outside the house when ideas of various shapes and colors play in my head. Just like when I was on the bus on my way home, I remembered what one fortune teller told me because of the guy who sat next to me.

A typical bus person in the Philippines.

Tuesday, September 23, 2014

Why We Love DILFs

For the longest time, I have been attracted to DILFs. And I am sure I am not the only one. So in this entry, I have decided to dissect why guys (well, and girls) like me fantasize and run after the daddies.

As I said, Ben Cohen is the ultimate DILF.

The Walk of Shame

Have you every felt so embarrassed to the point that you don't care anymore? This afternoon, I did. Since I lost my job three weeks ago, all I ever did was look for work online and attend interviews and exams. Invites were very rare for the past three weeks, but, for some whatever miraculous force, I have been receiving at least one interview invite each day for this week. And so, I went to two interviews today.

Somebody give me a job!

Sunday, September 21, 2014

A Faghag Sunday

Yesterday, I asked Jenie why she deactivated her Facebook account. She answered and said that apparently, she deactivated all other social media and chat app accounts as well. I could sense that she was undergoing something depressing, so I asked her if she wanted to go out with me to the mall. She said that she'd rather stay at home and read a book. I knew exactly what to say and asked her if she wanted to spend the day with me in a coffee shop and read-- no talking, no anything. She agreed, and I promised her that I would bring the Bridget Jones books I read last year.
OMG! This looks like Jenie, only she's a Filipino with fake blond hair!

Saturday, September 20, 2014

A DILF Bulge in the Bank and Watching Movie Alone

It's another Saturday, and we finally received our water bill from our landlord. I was tasked to cover for the water and phone expenses, so I had no choice but to go and pay it at the nearest BDO branch, which is in the nearest mall. Nothing much has happened. I just chanced upon a hot DILF bulge at the bank and watched a movie all on my own.

I went here. Nice sketch.

Friday, September 19, 2014

My Bathhouse Experience

Almost everything is suspended today because of the supertyphoon Mario, that hit the Philippines. But it still is a normal unemployed day for me here in the house, so I decided to watch Cachorro, a Spanish gay-themed film. It's not a very great film, but there is one aspect about it that made me remember something; it's setting in a bathhouse.

No, I think this one's from The Blues Brothers.

Thursday, September 18, 2014

A Day Without Men

I had an interview today for a Marketing Supervisor post in a mid-market fastfood chain here in the country. I couldn't say it went well, nor I could say that it went bad. I did my best, and I guess too well. Or perhaps, I was just sourgraping. But one thing's for sure, it made me forget about men just for one day at least.

Sorry, boys. Career first.

Wednesday, September 17, 2014

The Daunting City

Despite having an interview tomorrow, I went to the office just to meet my former officemates. I knew it wouldn't be the same as before. I no longer work with them, which means I did not have to try to respect them. But that's not the point of this blog; it is the men in Makati and how they scare the sh*t out of me.

Is there such a phobia over good-looking men?

Tuesday, September 16, 2014

An Old F*ck

The most fascinating thing about this day and age is that you can get back with anyone you ever remember you knew from the past. Facebook is becoming more and more indispensable these days as it is able to go beyond time and space, bringing together people miles apart and even those who have not met in quite a while. This evening, I received an interesting message from Maki, one of my few old f*cks.

Yep. It's all there.

The Right Kind of Man

I slept really late last night, so I woke up a bit later than usual today. There weren't anyone in the house except my cousin and our help, who I both do not talk to at all. So the first thing I did, waking up, was open the screen door, light a cancer stick (I am the Marlboro kind of gay), and scroll Facebook. I saw this interesting Buzzfeed Quiz entitled "What Kind Of Man Turns You On?" And I would have to say, I would have to agree with the result.

Best served with fried rice.

A Different Kind of Seeking

It is a Monday evening, so I was watching Masters of Sex earlier, all alone in our dining room as everybody else in the house snores. All this while online on Growlr, Grindr, and Planet Romeo. So I was enjoying the show when I heard my Planet Romeo personal message notification blared. Little did I know that the guy who sent the message was doing a different kind of seeking.
Oh yeah! A telescope might help!

Monday, September 15, 2014

On Being A Bottom And Bullshits

Yesterday, I met this guy on Growlr. His name is Miggy, 25, a nurse in Mandaluyong. He looks good enough. I think he's a chaser. I mean, what else would a lean guy do in Growlr, right? Everything was going well, until he said that it was such a waste that I was a bottom. I mean, what the f*ck?!

Chasers ought to be more understanding.

Sunday, September 14, 2014

A New Light in Thirteen Or So Minutes

I found this really interesting film over the Internet yesterday since it was a cousin's birthday, and I had no choice but to stay at home. The film was entitled Thirteen or So Minutes* and runs for the same duration as the title. For the first time ever, I related to the kind of sex a film portrays, and I have to admit, it justifies every single reason why I try to keep myself from being promiscuous.
The movie poster. Mind the laurel leaf-- and the ass.

Saturday, September 13, 2014

Actively Seeking For What?

I slept really late this morning, and I have to admit that it is because of Grindr, Growlr, and Planet Romeo. It was a Friday night, and my alcoholism kicked in really late for me to seek for drinking buddies. All I had last night, though, was blue balls.

Oh right. It's a Friday night.

Friday, September 12, 2014

On Clinging and Unintentional Teasing

Dating can be a very tricky thing. Unless you're a master, you will always find yourself in situations you cannot even imagine yourself in. I have six-- yes, six-- dating apps on my phone, I don't have a job right now, so you can just imagine how active I can be on these things.

Not gonna be me!

Thursday, September 11, 2014

Four Shots, Three Movies, Two Rounds, and One Heavy Bag

It's 6:33 in the morning, and I haven't slept yet, so I guess my day isn't over. Today, after doing my last blog, I went straight to my former office and met my former manager. I guess a lot has changed, most especially my perspective on things.

Pretty much sums up everything

Wednesday, September 10, 2014

A Horrible Phone Interview

I spent my whole day yesterday at home, looking at possible job openings for me and downloading the series that I watch. The highlight of my day, however, is something I should not be proud about at all-- a terrible phone interview from one of the top BPO companies here in the country.

Dun dun dun!!!

Tuesday, September 9, 2014

Playtime's Over: Of Mixing Alcohol and Sleeping All Day

I was not able to post a blog entry yesterday because I slept all day after what happened last Sunday. As mentioned, I went to JV's condo launch at PF Chang in ATC. Jenie went with me, and I got to see Raica, an old batchmate of mine, and her boyfriend, Caesar (not sure if spelled correctly). Sunday did not turn out the way I thought it would; it became another wild night with the gays.

(Not) Pong, JV, and me

Sunday, September 7, 2014

On Adjustments and Staying Home

Most of yesterday was spent at home as I was basically nursing a violent hangover from Blue Frog. I guess it was as mundane as it could be, but it gets a bit more exciting towards the end.

My day was like "meh."

Saturday, September 6, 2014

From Too Early to Early Morning

As I've said, I was set to come to Bed Manila last night to find Mr. Right. And as it turns out, I have my priorities straight from the beginning and got drunk (as usual) instead.

Beer, cocktails, and celery don't mix.

Friday, September 5, 2014

Here I Go Again

I know it has been ages since my last entry here. Believe me, I had been very busy for the past year. Now why do I dare come back? Basically because I don't have anything else to do but revive whatever is left of this blog.

This is my blog.