Honestly, I don't know where to begin. This has been my third-- or was it fourth?-- attempt at making an online journal for everyone to see. I am a very open person. As a matter of fact, I am very much open that I do not see the need for an online journal to be published by me. I usually confide to my close friends and tell them what has been happening with my life. However, I usually forget things. Perhaps my alcoholism is starting to take a toll on my brain, limiting my capability to remember. I believe that my life is an exciting one. I am gay and I have a lot of friends to keep me company during whatever times. But then I realized that I cannot remember most of my good times. I think that is the moment I began considering writing a blog. Perhaps I should try being less open and try pouring my emotions to an online diary instead. And so came my past blogs, from Live Journal, to Friendster, to WordPress-- all attempts in vain to keep my memories within easy recall.