Wednesday, March 30, 2011

The Fast Approach of Rather Radical Changes

You may have already realized that I am a very lazy person, resulting in a very bad rate of blog posts that declined to an average of once a week. Nonetheless, the rate of occurrences that are happening in my life are completely the opposite of what my discipline and commitment pose. It seems like God's hands are very much happy to change the course of my life in this crucial part of my being.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

I Had It Coming

So as I mentioned on my previous blog, I had a four-day worth of workload that I needed to get done last weekend. Apparently, the major major crammer that I am, I only did these things about three hours from actually going to work. This fact actually pisses me off because I seem not to care about anything these days anymore-- most especially my work. I thought I already hit rock bottom during my Army days, but today, it seems like I dug even deeper than that solid rock bottom. That's how strong my habit procrastination is these days. So needless to say, I did not finish the four-day load within three hours though I was able to submit something to my manager because I know that he will be needing it for his and the other bosses' Monday meeting.

Sunday, March 20, 2011

One Lazy Weekend with the Nazis

For a very long time, I have been spending my weekends outside our house, burning my well-earned money in more ways than one. It's either I go to the mall to shop and watch movie or go to a club and drown myself in alcohol. Occasionally, I would meet friends and stay with them for cups of coffees and endless laughs, killing minute after minute with stories from the past and those that never existed at all. I would say that I feel bad about all the money gone, but I believe that I have spent them in the best ways possible.

Wednesday, March 16, 2011

Perhaps I Was Wrong

For the past days, I have been having so much internal turmoil because I am starting to hate my job. I have only been working for only five months and this is the first time that I actually felt so strongly against it. Thinking of it, I can come up with only two reasons to justify the way I was feeling.

Tuesday, March 15, 2011

What Pushed Me to Do This

Honestly, I don't know where to begin. This has been my third-- or was it fourth?-- attempt at making an online journal for everyone to see. I am a very open person. As a matter of fact, I am very much open that I do not see the need for an online journal to be published by me. I usually confide to my close friends and tell them what has been happening with my life. However, I usually forget things. Perhaps my alcoholism is starting to take a toll on my brain, limiting my capability to remember. I believe that my life is an exciting one. I am gay and I have a lot of friends to keep me company during whatever times. But then I realized that I cannot remember most of my good times. I think that is the moment I began considering writing a blog. Perhaps I should try being less open and try pouring my emotions to an online diary instead. And so came my past blogs, from Live Journal, to Friendster, to WordPress-- all attempts in vain to keep my memories within easy recall.